Wednesday, December 27, 2006

Laidback Adelaide (not in some ways)




The driving trip to Adelaide was pretty good. It's really more fun to travel yourself by car. And since I can't drive, all I needed to do was just sit back, relax & sleep (heh). I should probably go into a description of what we did etc. but I'd rather talk about the treatment I received there. I did enjoy my trip overall but there are some unpleasant moments that would probably remain with me for a long time.

When I was studying in Melbourne, I did like it here - the climate (better than home), the lifestyle, the scenery, the fact that I was living in a big country and could travel around. But I was always and am still bothered by one fact: discrimination. It's not overt of course. I've never been physically or verbally harrassed. But I can feel it from the way some white people treat and look at me and also especially when I was looking for casual work then. No places owned by whites would employ me.

The trip to Adelaide reinforced my feelings. First, it was the way a salesgirl at Target looked and talked to my sister and me at the cashier. She was looking us up and down and the tone of her voice was so snotty. The second incident really infuriated me. We sat down for lunch at a fish & chips store near the beach. It happened that we bought a sandwich from Subway, not knowing that we can't bring food from other places. While eating the sandwich and waiting for our orders, a staff came to us and demanded that we pay if we bring outside food in. His attitude was hostile and he even said that he'd never take his children to a restaurant and bring food in. I thought that sarcastic remark was really uncalled for. Why did he have to embarrass us in front of so many people? There was a white girl who was drinking Boost juice in there and she wasn't chased away (unless she already paid for it). I couldn't help but feel it happened because we're Asians.

Although, I had a pretty good experience in Melbourne this time. People were nice and friendly. I don't know if it would be different if I live there again. But I still like Melbourne a lot. I really felt it when I took a very long walk by myself in the city (from South Bank to Melbourne Uni), remembering the past memories.

Monday, December 18, 2006

Twice unlucky!

The weather is good today. About 25 degrees in the day. I slept in and Uncle John's family brought us to Mt. Dandenong. It was my second time. I went there the first time for the Tulip festival in spring a few years ago. I've heard so much about the pies in Pie In the Sky and having missed out on it the first time (because it was closed by the time we went), I was determined to have it today. But being perhaps the most unlucky person in the world, they're closed again for Christmas!! And Christmas isn't until like a week away! Argh! But it's re-opening on the 27th and I may have a chance to go again. Though not for my family since they're leaving on that day.

It's another Chinese banquet tonight to celebrate Aunt Mary's father's birthday. I hope I don't get fat after this trip! I keep getting hungry and the family is always so generous with feeding us!! And tomorrow, we'll be waking up really early for our driving trip to Adelaide (4 days 3 nights). It should be fun!

Sunday, December 17, 2006

I'm back!


After a gruelling (more than 24 hours considering that I woke up at 5:30 a.m for my departure) day of travelling, I've finally made my way back to Melbourne after a 3-year absence. It doesn't feel any different. It's the same as I remember although I do need to become familiar with the names and places again. The weather? Perfect!


Uncle John, Aunty Mary (the family that we're staying with) and my mum came to pick me up. It was 2 hours later before I could get out because of the long wait at the baggage claim and the horrendous queues at the declaration area. Their house in Shirvington is lovely. Situated in a beautiful and peaceful neighbourhood, it's the kind of house that I can only dream to live in. They take care of us so well and it's very easy to feel at home here.


We had dinner at a Chinese restaurant in the vicinity to celebrate Aunty Mary's birthday. And there I met the whole family. There's Ben & Natasha who are married and Tim who's still staying with his parents. It's so nice that they are a close knit family that embellishes Asian family ties.

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Xmas Party with my conversation class

My students (although they're all much older than me!) treated me to a lovely lunch last Saturday. They organised a Xmas party at the French restaurant in my town after our class and we also exchanged presents. It's too early for Xmas but that's because I'm going away soon and won't be back until New Year's. I'm really glad to have this class to teach as my students are great! It's so much more fun to have your own class where you can plan your own stuff!

Sunday, December 03, 2006

Xmas Party for the kids!

It was one of my wishes to visit a children's home to spend time with the kids there. I can't imagine how hard it is for them to have no parents to care for and love them. I've visited a couple of old folks home and a place for handicapped children before (school community work). But truthfully, I always feel a little uncomfortable at such places because I'm filled with so much sadness and awkwardness. I don't know how I can help those people while I'm there. But it's different at a children's home because I can interact and play with the kids.

So together with some other JETs, we went to throw an early Xmas party for the kids at Kasahata; playing games & singing songs. The kids were at their happiest when they got their favourite treats: homemade cookies & candies!! There were two kids that I felt sad to leave. One was Risa, the little (six-year old) girl in the picture. I spent the first half of my time there sitting and colouring with her. She kept asking me to help her with things and even made me make her a paper bag to put her colourings in. :p And there was 2-year old Alexander (the half Japanese boy sitting on my lap), one of the sweetest things in the world!! When I noticed that nobody was playing with him, I went to sit with him. And once I started to carry him, he kept asking to be carried. When we had to leave, Risa came clinging to me. Alexander wanted to be carried too, so I had these 2 kids fighting each other and clinging on to me and boy were they heavy!! Alexander tugged at my heartstrings when he said that I can't leave because I'm holding him. Ahhh....! And Risa asked if I'd be coming again tomorrow. They are so adorable and it was hard to say goodbye to them at that time, although I was really tired by the end of the visit.

I promised the kids to go visit them again. I hope all of them stay healthy and happy!

Thursday, November 30, 2006

Just one more month!

It's only a month before 2006 ends! I know it's really cliche to say this but time really flies! I still remember sitting down at my computer last year in December writing about my reflections on year 2005. And now, here am I again trying to do the same thing.

The first half of this year was pretty much just a continuation of life carried forward from 2005. Nothing memorable, nothing that I can think of now (except that I was able to let go of some excess baggage). Although, I was trying to treasure every moment because I knew I was going to lose a good friend to her home country very soon. I guess I can say that I kind of got through the first half with some fear, not knowing what was going to happen in my 2nd year. And just a few months ago, I was able to do something that had been on my mind for a long time. I did it and it was different from what I expected. I couldn't figure out what lesson I was supposed to learn from that then, but now I think I do. Hopefully, that would lead me to the right place.

I seem to have worked on one of my resolutions this year and that is to be more sociable. I'm going out more often and have met new people this year, expanding my social circle. Work has been very dry and the weekends are something I really relish every week. Perhaps that is why I feel the need to go out, meet people & have fun. Dancing has really "saved" me. It definitely is adding more spice and joy to my life! I find that I'm getting quite attached to the connections I've made here. It's making me not want to leave Japan so soon, which I won't have to if only I can find a new job after JET! *fingers crossed*

Sunday, November 26, 2006

Special message!

Hehehe, Merry Christmas too!!

Dancing doesn't stop after class!

The salsa class at Urawa has a drinking and dancing party every time after class at a different venue. I've been invited twice, the few times I managed to attend that class, but never got to it because I'd already have made appointments. But today, I finally went. One thing that I felt is such a pity is that I never hang out with any Japanese even though I've been here for more than a year. But I just couldn't click with anyone at work. However, my situation might change since getting to know this group of people more. They're very friendly and a few can speak English too so it makes it even better. Although I can't go at all in December because of appointments and my upcoming Australia trip. I guess I'll have to wait until next year then....残念!

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

The world is coming to me!

It's funny that although the percentage of foreigners in Japan is very low, I've met many foreigners from different places, more so than when I was back home or in Melbourne. It most probably has to do with the fact that I'm a foreigner too, so it's easier to bond with one another. When you don't have your own community to hang out with, you're more open to others. The JET programme has allowed me to meet many people mainly from English speaking countries: Canada, UK, Australia, US etc. And recently, because of salsa, I've been meeting many people from Latin America: Peru, Puerto Rico, Cuba, Chile, Columbia & Mexico. I love such international exposure. It makes me feel as if I'm connected to a world much bigger than my own!

Thursday, November 16, 2006

She’s Got Him (一枚上手 by 平野啓一郎)

Trying not to miss out on any corners, Yoshio wandered fresh from his bath, from the bedroom to the living room, and then to the washbasin, thinking. A frustrated Satoko spoke to him when he came into the living room for the third time.

“What’s the matter?”

“Huh?” Yoshio looked up only to look away again. He searched the room restlessly with his eyes. “Nothing…,” he said. “Looking for your phone?” Satoko asked abruptly.

“What? Erm, yeah…” He was taken aback. “It’s with me.” She placed his phone on the table as she said that. She caught him by surprise again. Almost automatically, he questioned her. “Why is it with you?”

She answered nonchalently. “Well, I thought, wouldn’t it be a good idea to exchange our phones for the next three days.” With that, she laid her phone down beside her husband’s.

“Wh…What?!” Yoshio thought he had enough surprises from her.

“What’s the big deal? I got the idea from watching TV the other day. It’s a way of increasing trust between a husband and wife. Well, Tomoko told me that she always checks her husband’s phone. But I don’t do that to you, do I?”

Yoshio couldn’t believe what he was hearing. Whatever programme that was, it sure was putting weird ideas into her head, he thought. Wait…no. Could she have come up with it herself? Hmm…that’s possible. What is it? Has she discovered something? But how? And when? But whatever it is, he has to say no.

“Of course not! How am I going to work?” Trying his best to act calm, Yoshio even managed a smile on his face. Satoko returned his smile. “But we have a long weekend from tomorrow, remember? I wouldn’t think of interfering with your work. That’s why I’ve waited till now. And if any work related calls come, I’d definitely answer them for you. That’s no problem, right?” “Huh? But…,” he stuttered.

“Why is that a problem?” she retorted. Yoshio thought he saw an unexplainable glint in his wife’s eyes. “No…it’s ok. But…”

She cut him off. “Don’t worry. I’m not going to check your phone list. I’m just going to receive your text messages and calls. That’s all.” He couldn’t think of anything worse than that! His head swam as he imagined every possible kind of worst scenarios. What should he do? Does she doubt him? Should he turn the tables and get mad at her?

At that instant, the phone on the table rang. It was Yoshio’s. At the sound of that particular ring tone, his face turned stark white. Without a single word or expression, Satoko reached her hand out for the phone. “Wait, no!” Yoshio shouted out desperately. “Why not?” she challenged him. “It….I…” Their wide eyes fixed on each other.

That phone call had sealed the fate of their long weekend.

This and the two other stories I've translated revolve around the theme of mobile phones. The writers featured in the anthology are popular writers of today. It's interesting the number of different stories you can get from a single object. It shows how much we rely on our mobile phones today and how our lives are greatly intertwined with it.

Woman In Love (大人の恋 by 唯川恵)

She let out a long sigh as she grasped her mobile phone. On the LCD screen was the name of the guy she had recently added to her phone list. She only had to press the call button. But it was easier said than done, as her finger had been lingering over it for ages.

It was such an easy thing for her when she was younger, but now she couldn’t bring herself to do it. Her feelings got in the way every time. Would he think her too old? Would her status at work give rise to gossip? What about her pride? Above everything else, she was afraid. She didn’t want to be thought of as too forward or worse, reveal too much of her feelings.

A bitter smile escaped her lips. It’s not like she was going to confess her love. It’s just to thank him for the other night. Like how you would say “Thanks, I had fun!” to someone, without any hang-ups. He probably didn’t even see that night as a date. “Call me,” he had said when they parted. He could have just been being polite. Still, she could call. But since she became aware of her feelings for him, hesitation overcame her.

Wouldn’t he simply snub her if she calls? He probably doesn’t like women who seem too eager. At the thought of that, she would get cold feet and abandon her urge to call.

It has been a while…

Endless days and months have passed since her break-up with him, the man she used to call her boyfriend. At that low point of time, she had thought that either she had to rid him off this planet or else make herself disappear. It’s her or him. The mental battle fought tirelessly in her. And the result of it? She had grown to become a hard and obstinate woman, not caring about her sexual appeal to men.

WHY does she even have to own a phone?

It was a question she had asked herself repeatedly after the break-up. Her showers were a rushed affair just because she was afraid that he might call. Has he called?? Did he text her?? She became preoccupied with checking her phone the minute she wasn’t doing anything. Many a times she had shaken her phone violently just to see if the reason for the unbearable silence was because it had failed on her.

There isn’t anyone as foolish as a woman in love. Is she becoming that woman again?

NO! It will never happen to her twice.

She shook her head firmly.

She doesn’t give a damn about love. She has her career to focus on. She has complete control over her weekends. She could go for quick getaways with her girlfriends. Gone is the stale stench of cigarette smoke in her apartment. She can now spend hours in the bath every night. Who needs love to take away all that?

In spite of all that, she could not ignore the burning longing that constantly occupies her every sense. “I’m not falling in love!” She looked at her phone once more as she muttered. And while denying to herself, she would find herself at any moment staring in disbelief at the thumb already pressed firmly on the button. Callingcalling...


Sounds familiar, doesn't it? I wanted to translate this story immediately after reading it. I felt the urge to put down the similar feelings I've experienced (and what many women feel) into words. It's usually women who waits (Though I know some guys would disagree). Forever kept waiting...

Monday, November 13, 2006

In the land of kawaii

When you are in the land where everything is "Kawaii!!", you seem to become one yourself. I've had this said so many times to me, "Kawaii!" or "Kawaii ne!" by students, men & women alike. On average I get about one or two "Kawaii" every day (and that of course doesn't include the days I stay home unless I do that to myself in the mirror! haha). I have never met a race that is so quick and generous with their compliments. Another compliment that I get regularly is "Jouzu!" (you're good!), but I shall not dwell into that today.

I don't receive many compliments about my looks from non-Japanese, that I've realised. It's not like I've suddenly grown to become very pretty after coming to Japan, although the number of compliments I've gotten seem to suggest that. It's simply that the Japanese love to praise! When my students say I'm "kawaii", it's kind of sweet and I feel flattered that they look up to me or admire me. When Japanese men say that to me, I accept it graciously because who doesn't like admiration from the opposite sex? Though I must say that Japanese men are not shy about paying compliments the first time they meet you, which is kinda strange! But I'm really amused & baffled when women say that to me too! I'm sure many people know that women are more prone to jealousy and when you're with other women (no matter friends or foes), you can't help but compare yourself to them. So sometimes I'd feel a little uncomfortable when a group or pair of women say to each other that I'm kawaii. I'd wonder if they really mean it or hate me for that. I am maybe just being paranoid and thinking too much into a maybe genuine compliment. But I guess that's a culture difference that I'm not used to. Usually the same gender in my country don't lavish compliments on each other so openly!

I try not to let those compliments get to my head though because I know it is just part of Japanese culture. Though, the vain side of me might kind of miss them when I leave because I won't be able to hear such compliments often! hehe.

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

Just for that day (その日 by 高橋源一郎)

Just for that day, they decided to change to a new set of mobile phones. It was Takeshi's idea.

"I don't see why we have to," his wife, Kiyomi objected. "You're only going away for a few days." "Well...that's true. We won't be able to contact each other anyway when the time comes, but...," Takeshi insisted. Kiyomi asked softly. "But what?" At that Takeshi felt the words caught in his throat. "
I can't wait..." he muttered under his breath.

He left after purchasing the new phones. Harada from the office was there to pick him up when he touched down at Sapporo. "You must be tired. I'm really sorry that you had to come all the way here especially at this time," Harada apologized. "It's ok. The date of my presentation for this seminar was already decided before we found out," Takeshi replied politely. "Well, you never know what life decides to spring at you, eh?" Harada said jokingly. Takeshi thought, "You're right," but said nothing.

Barely had he stepped into his hotel room, he picked up the phone to call Kiyomi. "Are you ok? Anything wrong?" He sounded worried. Kiyomi laughed at her husband. "What's wrong with you? You only just left!" "Anyway," he continued, "call me at once if anything happens."

That same night, he checked on her three more times. The first day of the seminar began the next morning. Although he turned the sound off, Takeshi set his phone on vibration mode. As soon as the seminar paused for a break, he went out to the corridor to contact Kiyomi. "You...you're acting just like a stalker, I'm telling you!" Kiyomi answered his call unbelievably. After he was done with the seminar, Takeshi declined the dinner invitation and returned to the hotel. He had to go through the notes once more for his presentation tomorrow. But he just couldn't get well into it. That night, he rang twice and called again the next morning. For some reason, Kiyomi didn't answer his calls, leaving him only to the sound of the answering machine.

Reluctantly, he headed for the seminar, fret with anxiety. Just before his presentation, he took out his phone once more. There was a text message.

It simply says, "I'm checking into the hospital now." His presentation was on Soseki and Comparative Literature. But Takeshi had no recollection of what he said. Though he tried really hard to concentrate on the topic, his mind wandered constantly. The seminar ended, followed by the social mingling and dinner. No matter how many times he checked, there was no more contact from her. He was almost out of his mind with worry and anticipation.


Before he even realised it, Takeshi drifted off to sleep. The sound from his mobile phone startled him. His hand was on the phone in a flash! Attached to the text message was a photo. This was the reason for his suggestion to Kiyomi. The message was short.

"Hello there!" The face resembling a monkey reflected on the screen.
It was being held in someone's arms. Here was the first photo of his first newborn after 15 years of marriage.

This is another short story that I've just translated. I'm really hoping for some comments here for my own benefit. Did you get the feel of the story? How did you find it? Or how can I improve on it? Onegaishimasu!

Monday, November 06, 2006

Golden rules of dancing

There are two things that I can't stand a guy doing while dancing. One is to teach me how to dance. That gives me the impression that the man is full of himself, has no respect for the girl, unchivalrous, and doesn't know how to enjoy dancing. As is quoted from a dance movie, there are no mistakes when it comes to dancing. Dancing is always fun. Though I'm not saying that it's fun to dance with someone who's not good at it. But rather, we shouldn't mind making mistakes sometimes. I wouldn't mind the guy telling me how to do a step or move after the dance because with a club dance like salsa, there are so many styles that it's impossible to know every one of them (also not forgetting the fact that you often have to dance with someone who's more advanced than you). But NEVER during the dance! If he wants to teach so much, he should go be an instructor instead. Or better still, go dance by himself! Hah.

The second pet peeve I have is of a guy trying to chat me up while dancing. It's extremely irritating because it takes all the fun out from dancing. How can one concentrate on it when you have to engage in a conversation while surrounded by loud music? It may look romantic in the movie, Pride & Prejudice, but I think it's off limits at a dance club. I sense desperation or an ulterior motive in such guys, which makes me lose all respect for them. If he really is interested to know the girl, he should wait for the right moment to talk. He can't expect to have a decent conversation anyway while leading the girl!

Other than that, dancing is always fun! :)

P.S I think it's obvious not to have to add a third one, which definitely ranks first: a man trying to take advantage of you while dancing!!

Sunday, November 05, 2006

Almost famous!

Feeling a very strong urge to dance after watching "Dance with Me" starring Vanessa L. Williams & Chayanne, I decided to check out a salsa club at Ikebukuro today (technically yesterday). Since it's a long weekend this week, I thought I might as well go out to try a new dance club. I really liked the movie. The stars danced so well and were so good looking. And haha...thus I fell in love with Chayanne! He not only sings, dances and acts well, but is so damn handsome & charming!

I was initially worried about going to a new club alone, but the owner and patrons (old fashioned perhaps to say that?) were really friendly. I like the club too as it's spacious & pretty new. One of the people I chatted for quite a bit is a man from Puerto Rico, Miguel. We were chatting about salsa, merengue, bachata and their music etc. Not that I know much, but he told me quite a lot as he's a musician. It also happened that there's a poster (above) of the movie, "Dance with Me" at the club and I began to talk about it. Being both Puerto Ricans (Chayanne's from P.R too), Miguel's pretty familiar with him. BUT, the highlight of it was when he said he knew him personally as he's in the music business! Oh my god!! You can imagine how surprised I was hearing that. I thought I heard wrong at first! I got the idea that they perhaps have lost touch as he was talking in the past tense and that Chayanne is touring (perhaps) in Spain now. And though I know it has nothing to do with me, it made me really happy to know that he's a good man who's down to earth.

Wow...to think that I was actually talking to someone who knew him! Hmm....I know some of you might think that the guy could be trying to kid me, but I believe him as he doesn't look the sort and no, he wasn't flirting with me at all!

Monday, October 30, 2006

How are you? - I love you.

This must be one of the weirdest responses I've gotten in an English class.

Me: Good afternoon class! How are you today?
Class (led by the boy, Yoshiki who has been proposing to me recently): I love you.
Me: Ahh......I love you too. (laughs)

Friday, October 27, 2006

Not eating right?

Feeling miserable from my cold, I decided to make some herbal soup the other day to warm myself. Before you start thinking what an accomplished cook I am (am not!!), it's really quite simple and that's the only herbal soup I know unless it comes in pre-packed satchets! haha. As I was eating in front of my computer (yeah, bad habit...not that I usually do stuff on it while I eat), I thought I should just check on what stuff is being said about red dates & longans, not that I don't already know a little. And as you know, one link always leads to another and I think I've got a pretty good find. The solution it seems to many of our health problems lies in TCM. Not that I'm going to start buying many herbs and concocting bitter medicine for myself...I'm in Japan and so far I've never seen any Chinese medicinal halls! Even if there are, I don't think I can be bothered.

But what's cool about TCM is that I found information on dietary advice in each season and body constitution. Eating different foods in each season is definitely new to me as Singapore only has one season (though I do notice that the Japanese changes their menu according to the season)! It wasn't like that in Australia and as a student then, all I cared about was my studies and had no time to think about nutrition. Instant noodles was a regular in my diet. But now, I don't even buy them anymore! After reading some of the information, I don't find it that hard to follow because as it is, some of the foods listed are already my favourites! I just have to know when to eat them and eat more. And now that I'm aware of my body constitution, I know what types of food I should pay more attention to. The hard part is making the conscientious effort to change my lifestyle. But I don't think I have a choice because I really don't enjoy catching colds all the time here. Let's hope that this will work because Western medicine really doesn't do anything!

If you're interested, have a look at these 2 links: http://www.shen-nong.com/eng/front/index.html http://leni.wordpress.com/tag/products-and-recipes/

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Helpless....

It's been almost a month since I had my first cold. And like last year, once it starts it'll never go away completely as it'll often come back as the weather gets colder & colder. And whenever I start to get a little better, it f******* rains (like these two days) and I fall sick again from riding in the rain. Sigh...the main thing I hate about being in Japan is the fact that I keep falling sick. I can't wait till this job is over so that I don't have to keep cycling to work, rain, snow or shine or torture myself walking around the badly heated schools in winter!

Saturday, October 21, 2006

Kawagoe Festival

I've unjustifiably been called "matsuri onna" (festival lady) after I told a teacher that I went to the Kawagoe Festival. Truth is I haven't been to that many festivals. Unfortunately, I wasn't in the mood because I wasn't feeling well (am still not feeling that good..bleah). Guess the photos reflect my mood because they look like crap! No matter how many times I tried, they turned out blurry without the flash. I would have given a description of the festival in detail but I really just walked through the whole thing like a zombie and thus didn't soak in the atmosphere. Although I have to at least tell you that you're looking at a dashi, float. Helpful, huh? :0

My love affair

What has started off as a slight interest has developed into a love affair that until now I hadn't realised. This relationship has affected my life in profound ways but they have been so subtle and gradual. This relationship is also the foundation of one of my dreams.

It's the love affair that I have with many things associated with Japan: her language, her people & her culture. It has also evolved into a love-hate relationship as I get drawn deeper into it. It began five...nearly six years ago. I'd never have imagined the events that have taken place to happen when I first decided to take up Japanese for fun. Things like majoring in Japanese, falling in love, working in a Japanese company, teaching at a Japanese school and finally coming to Japan to work (& actually having gained the experience of working with a wide range of Japanese from the young to the old). I often answer people that I've been studying Japanese for almost six years now. But it would actually be more accurate to say that I've had a relationship with Japan for six years because I've done more than just studying the language. And I didn't even realise that until I just contemplated on it. It's a love affair that I'm neither eager to keep it a secret nor show it off. All I can say that it happened quite unexpectedly...perhaps like most great love stories? Like I've always thought, how funny it is that one thing can alter or affect your life so strongly.

What would it have been had I continued with French instead of taking up Japanese? It would perhaps be a more romantic love affair...haha. But if I were to have another chance to find it out in this lifetime, I definitely would.

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Which S are you good at?

I don't know how accurate it is to say that but I've always thought that in the past (during my school days) only either one S is focused. Studies or sports. If you're good at studying, people assume you have no time for sports and naturally won't excel in it. Likewise, if you're good at sports, people think that you wouldn't have the energy left to achieve good grades considering the amount of time you spend outdoors. As it is, I've plenty of opportunities to observe the children of today as I go to many schools. And to my surprise, I've seen many kids who are equally good outdoors as they are indoors, meaning the classroom. I guess it is now being acknowledged that both S are just as important. To those kids, they have my full admiration as I witness their potential in not just one, but two areas and perhaps even more. And envy too because although I've always been pretty good at my studies, I hang my head down when it comes to sports. What's worse is when some people say that they can tell from my appearance!

Being alone

A teacher asked me whether I like being alone or with friends in our conversation. I replied, "Both!" to which he laughed as if it was an improper answer. It's true though. There are times when I'd rather be alone or times when I crave for people's company. I think it's a blessing to be able to like being by yourself. I wasn't always like that when I started to live overseas by myself. I feared loneliness and thought I should be ashamed of not being out with friends. But that was also the time when I couldn't find anyone I could really click with. I saw being alone as a failure to make friends. I was depressed.

Naturally we need friends. I swear I wouldn't have remained in Japan if I hadn't found a few good friends to hang out with. But I've also become much better at enjoying spending time by myself and doing the things I like alone. I still fear loneliness of course. I can think of few who don't. But we can learn how to be alone without being lonely as loneliness is a state of the mind, not physical. My time in Japan hasn't been a waste as it has taught me one such valuable lesson. I've learnt to value the time by myself very much...but not too much.

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

Relaxing work day

Though I'm often pretty free at work, it wasn't boring today. The kids are having their sports meets so we won't be having any 1 & 2 nensei classes these two days. I only had 1 class with the 3 nensei today. The rest of the time I was doing other stuff: watching a video about the recording of the song, "We Are The World" with one 3 nensei class, preparing for my adult conversation class which I have twice a month on Saturdays, making cakes with the sousaku club (can't think of any appropriate translation. Let's just imagine our home economics class.) and thus received many different kinds of food from the students - Japanese curry rice, cookies, hotcakes, cakes and okonomiyaki that I had to force myself to eat after school lunch! And just before I left for home, I was reading a novel.

Sounds like a day to be envied, eh? But it's not always fun. Sometimes I'm so bored that I wish time would go by quickly so that I can go home. Well, at least it was fun today.

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

When it comes....

These are the wedding photos of an ex-course mate I happened to find in her blog. She just got married recently. Her wedding photos taken in Perth are absolutely gorgeous! This is the type of photos I would like to take when I get married....out in the nature and under blue skies (hmm..though I didn't post her pictures of blue skies). She looks completely stunning in all her pictures! But hey, she's a model or used to be one! :p I only wish I can be half as beautiful as her when it comes...

Old friend who flew here for a coat!

If you're wondering who the strange looking man beside me is, let me first tell you that he flew specially from Korea (mainly to see his dear little friend of course :p) to Japan so that he can change the size of the coat he bought for his sweet Korean girlfriend at the Burberrys duty free boutique. Ooh....it makes me so jealous, hear that Jerry?! Haha.

Ok, enough of teasing him. He's my old friend and perhaps deserves some better treatment from me, eh? :) I'm glad we could meet up since we hadn't met since he moved to Korea. That must have been about 2/3 years ago. As he said it (so proudly) himself, I'm the only friend he has visited overseas more than once. Once in Melbourne and then here! I've known him since I was 17, although he's much older. Hoho. Always acting the older brother and giving out "sound" advice. :p Though I'm really grateful that he was there to help out emotionally when I first arrived in Melbourne even though he was far away in Brisbane!

Hey, this sounds more like a testimonial for him rather than a blog entry! Can't help it...have to say something to please him. :0 On a last note, I'd better make sure I don't get sick again if he comes back to visit. I always seem to be sick whenever someone overseas comes to visit me!

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

Why is it Australia again?!

Has Australia cast a spell on me? I seem to be fated with that country. I've been there twice for holidays and spent almost 2 years studying in Melbourne. In 2004, I bought a ticket to Melbourne to visit someone though I didn't go in the end. And in Dec, I'll be going there once more (Adelaide too)!! Argh...I can't believe it...I don't know whether to be happy or exasperated. Happy because Melbourne feels very special to me. Exasperated because I'd rather go somewhere I've never been to as I haven't travelled to many countries. I always end up going to the same countries...why??!!!

Maybe fate wants to bring me back to Melbourne. I'd planned to go to New Zealand at the end of the year with my family for a long time. Though my mum kept changing about her mind about going, when she finally decided to go, tickets are fully booked. Argh! My second choice was Canada so that I can visit Janet. But after hearing how cold it is in Dec, I was very hesitant. So instead, we're going to stay at a family friend's place in Melbourne as they kept insisting that we should visit them. We were planning to go to New Zealand with that family, but even they couldn't get tickets in Australia. Such bad luck! :(

Though it would certainly be very nostalgic to walk down the streets of Melbourne again. I wonder if it has changed much...

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

Mr. Darcy....more!

Hmm...where can I rent the 1995 version of Pride & Prejudice?! I can't get enough of the love story between Mr. Darcy and Elizabeth! In a state of deprivation of Mr. Darcy...sigh. Now I understand what women are talking about when they say that the novel/movie has given them hope of finding "our own Mr. Darcy". Or could it only throw us further & deeper into self-delusion because can such a man really exist? Though I'm always up for such a dream! :p

Sunday, October 01, 2006

Sorry, I just want to dance.

I went to the live salsa event at the club I go to for my salsa lesson with only two things on my mind: to dance & enjoy myself, which I did very much. It was the first time I've heard a live salsa band. Can't wait to go for many more!! Though there was this guy from Peru who probably had other things on his mind. He invited me to dance a few times and seemed more interested in talking to me than dancing. He has such a sweet tongue, repeatedly calling me "baby" and saying I'm "bonito". I hate it when a man calls me "baby", unless he's closely related to me! Though I was talking and joking with him (just being polite), I was firm to decline when he asked for my number. It seems that he lives in the same town as me although I've never seen him around. I hope I don't! This is an example of what I meant in my previous entry: the perils of going to a club alone.

Thursday, September 28, 2006

Hearing many wedding bells

In just within a month, I've heard news of four friends/acquaintances getting married. And that wasn't the first time it happened to me. News like that seems to like to attack you all at the same time. What happened to the social phenomenon of women delaying marriage? It's definitely not happening in my circle of friends! It's so weird to hear your friends getting married especially when you're still not sure where you're going to settle or where the hell is the right person. It makes you reassess where you are in life now and if you're at the stage that you're in now by choice. I wonder if I'm the one that is weird...

Soon, I might be hearing news of friends getting pregnant and then hearing their kids call me aunty. Argh..."aunty"!

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

Smile returned

If I were someone else and saw myself today, I would probably go up and say, "You know, I hadn't seen you smile like that in class for a long while." And I would think about it and say, "Yeah, you're probably right." Truth is because it wasn't my usual class at the junior high schools, but an elementary school visit in the afternoon. As usual the energy and liveliness of the little children didn't fail to cheer me up.

We were there (Jennifer & I) to promote international understanding with 2 other foreigners (originally from Peru & China) among the kids. It was a much bigger class of fifth graders than last year with 127 students. It was pretty nerve wrecking to do my introduction in front of such a huge class at first. But I enjoyed myself so much that I soon forgot my nervousness. During the break time, when the kids rushed to our side to look at the stuff we brought for our introduction, I felt really warm with happiness. They were so eager and curious.

I wish I can smile like that in my usual classes, but I just can't. Not anymore...

Sunday, September 24, 2006

Feel safe in a pair

Today was my second time attending the cuban salsa class at Urawa. I got to know about this class from someone I met at the class I go to at Omiya. I thought I would go to Urawa whenever I can (which hasn't been much yet) to get more practice. I tried the later intermediate class today as the the beginner class I attended before was too easy. There were only 4 people left at the intermediate class (not including the instructor & me) and we practiced rueda. It was really fun as one person shouts out different commands and you switch partners by going round in a circle. It also happened to be the rehearsal for the other four students as they have a show next week at Tokyo. While they were practicing their solo performances, I watched until I joined them in the pair work. As I was watching, I couldn't help but wish I could perform too. But thinking back to my days in the dance club at university, I thought I'd better not have that thought again.

It was the most stressful time for me when I had my rehearsals and finally the performance nights a few years ago. I had to dance hip hop in front of many people. Till today, I still amaze myself when I tell people that I performed hip hop in uni. Although I like it (like most kinds of dance except for disco dancing), it was seriously hard for me because my coordination is poor so I have to learn by doing enough till my body is used to the steps. Hip hop is just too fast for me to catch up. The only reason why I joined the performing dance club was because they didn't have salsa at uni.

Though what they did today wasn't hip hop, any individual work is difficult for me. I can't cope with too fast steps!! I still prefer pair work and love dancing with a partner. Although there are really fast moves in pair work too, I feel assured that I have a partner leading me. Hmm...I wonder what it says about me?!

Sunday, September 17, 2006

It's the weekend!

It's always good to hang out with my friends from JET. It takes me away from the dull routine of work and the loneliness of being the only foreigner in my work environment. Today, we attended the bunkasai (cultural festival) at the high school that Michael teaches at. Many a times, I've wished that we can have 2 AETs in each school so that at least we can keep each other company. Though some of the staff at school are nice and chat with me once in a while, it feels different and can never go very deep because of language difficulties. I can't speak Japanese perfectly and they can hardly speak English. I've come to learn the real meaning of isolation now that I've finally experienced being the odd one out. Well, I'm not saying I'm the only one because most AETs have the same work situation. So it's fun to let loose when I'm hanging out with my friends. We're all foreigners and experience a similar work environment. I'm a little crazy (not wild :p) when I'm with them since I've the privilege of being a "gaijin" (slang for foreigner). Can't do that when I'm with the Japanese since I tend to be more Japanese around them.

Thursday, September 14, 2006

Early autumn or false alarm??

The heat has passed. Really? I can't say for sure because the weather in Japan is strange. Same time last year, it could still get quite hot on certain days. But this week, the temperature has dropped to the low twenties and even 18/19 degrees at night because of constant raining. It's bloody irritating to cycle with the rain lashing at your face and get to school totally drenched & unglamorous with your students looking at you. And I had to do that every single day!! Which is unsurprising that I can feel a cold coming. Apparently the incessant raining is caused by typhoons around Okinawa. Fortunately, we're getting a break these 2 days from the rain before it continues again from this weekend...bleah... I guess it really gets to me because I have to cycle to work. Won't complain if I have a car. Though I would need a chauffeur to accompany the car!!

Monday, September 11, 2006

Musing...

The 2 movies that I rented this week, "A very long engagement" aka Un long dimanche de fiançailles (a great movie which has been added to my list of favorites) and "Gladiator", happen to contain the theme of war. I can never look squarely at horrible scenes of war and always wonder why humans have to kill each other for power. When a man is killed, the hearts of many who have loved that person die with him. Every enemy means something to someone. People celebrate victories. What does victory really mean but the defeat of another? Why do we have to win all the time?

Sunday, September 10, 2006

The cool & the nerdy

I don't know what I did or what happened to have changed a student's attitude towards me in one of the schools. As usual, we're being rotated. Though now with only 3 AETs, the rotation is getting more frequent, meaning I stay for a shorter time (2 weeks to a month) at each school. I can't be bothered bonding with the students anymore because it's just impossible when you stay for only a few weeks, disappear for more than half a year and then return. The students forget you or they're not close to you anymore. It's true and it kind of hurts a little at first. But if I don't care about bonding with them anymore, it won't hurt. It's just a job to me now...go to a school, do my work, and move to the next school.

Anyway, back to the boy. He's kind of "cool" because he never smiles nor talks in English class. It's not the real cool to me as he doesn't fit my image of a cool guy. I would say he has an attitude problem..hah! He had never once looked at or greeted me (I think) in class when I was at his school a few months ago. To my surprise, he smiled at the beginning of class when he saw that I have returned. Just the other day, the 3 nensei went out picking pears around the neighbourhood. Yeah, this school has quite a few fun events for the students! And the boy came to the staff room to give me a pear, though he didn't say anything but just looked at me when he offered me the pear. It's really strange why he's suddenly so nice to me!

And there is Ikeda-kun..............I didn't really want to say it at first, but he's so nerdy!! He came asking for my reply to his love letter again (twice in a row!!) when he saw me and right in front of the other staff! I really hope he would grow out of this stupid crush. It just makes me want to avoid him like the plague. If only his "feelings" for me have changed like the "cool" boy's attitude towards me...........

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

Just like home & here

Taipei was a tad disappointing. It feels just like Singapore and Japan. It feels so familiar that there wasn't much feeling of excitement or wonder as I went around the city. The MRT, night market and underground shopping malls feel so much like home. And Taipei looks like a replica of Tokyo as it copies the Japanese pop culture so blatently! Japanese tourists, Japanese sign boards, Japanese restaurants, Japanese stores (even Family Mart - a convenience store) and Japanese products were everywhere in their original form! Although I was a little taken aback when I went into McDonald's and had to read the menu in traditional Chinese! I don't know what I was thinking but I just didn't expect it not to be in English. It was the same when I first walked into McDonald's in Japan & thought "Oh no....all katakana!!".

The weather was HORRIBLE. I don't think I've ever experienced such bad humidity...though my friend said I must have forgotten how hot & humid Singapore can get too. But I don't regret going since I did enjoy the shopping and some of the food. Taiwanese sales assistants have such sweet tongues that it's hard to reject them! Overall, it was still quite a decent vacation. But now I'm having second thoughts about going to Hong Kong, Shanghai or Seoul (places that I was keen to visit) as Asian cities are mostly all the same anyway.

Monday, August 28, 2006

Cruising around Tokyo Bay

Finally got the chance to wear a yukata in public & going on the trains! I feel so Japanese walking in my kawaii yukata and geta (Japanese clogs) in gentle little steps. Though the thing is I get mistaken for a Japanese all the time anyway, even less surprising when I'm in a yukata, that I think my foreign looking girl friends get paid more attention for wearing that on the street! :p

The cruise ship that we went on is huge with 3 decks and maybe a thousand people! The night view of Tokyo Bay was fantastic. People were mainly drinking and having a good time. I was expecting a more relaxed cruise with only people from Tokyo Gaijins (the group that we signed up with for the cruise). But it was still fun anyway. Even dressing up with April & Jennifer at Nakamura sensei's place was an adventure by itself.

This summer has been fun: going to a natsu matsuri (summer festival), hanabi (fireworks) & yukata boat cruise!!

Sunday, August 27, 2006

A peaceful night of hanabi

I got off at Kumagaya station, north of Saitama where my Mexican friend picked me up to go to Menuma to view the hanabi, fireworks. It was a really pleasant day with such nice weather. Thank god it wasn't hot & humid today! I was expecting a really crowded festival with sweaty people pushing against each other and squeezing among the crowd. But there was none of that. It was really quiet and dark there in the middle of nowhere with just a few food stalls. Although there were many families with mats & little chairs, it was still pleasantly crowded. I loved the place...perfect for viewing hanabi!!

Hanabi in Japan are so long!! The one at Menuma lasted for 2 glorious hours!! And I got more that what I bargained for as it happened that 2 other places were displaying fireworks at around the same time. So while waiting during the intervals, I would look at the smaller ones further away. As I sat watching the fireworks, the wind caressed my face and it even felt a little chilly as we were in the open air. It was a really beautiful night and I'm glad that I was there enjoying the moment.

Saturday, August 26, 2006

Auggie Wren's Christmas Story

Auggie Wren's Christmas Story written by Paul Auster. It's not a book I read, but a story (translated into Japanese) that I had to re-translate into English as my homework. Well, not the whole thing because it'll drive me crazy and take up all my time... Novel translation is so much harder than I expected. I doubt I'll ever make it...or at least I can't see myself making it now. Reading & understanding the Japanese is hard enough, but to translate it into an English context that native speakers can easily understand while considering the author's style and injecting my own style is even harder! It sucks not being a native English speaker because I have to think & write like one when I translate. Anyway, here's the part I translated. If there're any comments on the style of writing or if it even makes any sense, do let me know....if anyone cares to read. Although, DO NOT correct my grammar mistakes openly! :p

I heard this story from Auggie Wren. He doesn’t come off as a very good guy in here. Well, at least he wishes it would have been different. For that reason, he has asked me not to use his real name. Apart from that, everything else here is true: the lost wallet, the blind girl and the Christmas dinner. We’ve known each other for almost 11 years. Auggie works behind the counter in a cigar store on Court Street in Brooklyn. And I’m his regular customer. That store is the only place that sells my favorite thin Dutch cigars, which gives me enough reason to drop by frequently. For the first few years, I’d never paid much attention to him. He was just an eccentric guy always wearing a blue hooded sweatshirt who sells me cigars and magazines. You can always count on Auggie to hit you with witty comments on the weather, the Mets, or the politicians of Washington. He’s the sweet evil tongue that everyone loves for making their day. That was all I knew or thought about him.

But as it happened, one day, while flipping through the magazines in the store, Auggie’s eyes fell across a review of my book. His eyes narrowed with recognition as he stared at the photo that came with it. And that changed our casual acquaintance completely. I was no longer just one of his many customers that walked in and out of the store daily. I am a writer. Not that many people in the world would give a damn to my books or that I’m a writer. But Auggie differs in that he regards himself as an artist. Since the moment my identity was uncovered by him, he began to take me in differently as if I were his trusted confidant or comrade on the battlefield. Although, honestly, I was irked that he thought we shared an affinity. As if I had been anticipating it all along, one day, he came up to me and asked if I would like to look at his photos. Looking at his eager face with all good intentions, I couldn’t bring myself to say, “Sorry, but I’d rather not”.

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

An unplanned vacation

I'm going to Taipei....next week!! Little did I expect to travel so soon just after coming back. But life is sometimes full of such spontaneity. Though I'm not your most spontaneous person because I like to plan ahead. But the opportunity was too tempting to pass over.

So 4 people from Japan & Singapore will be setting out individually (though one is already there), each with a different agenda. But we'll all converge eventually. I just thought that it's such a strange but cute idea. As if it contains a significance...hmm...but most likely not. I've come to realise that coincidences are only significant if you attach significance to it. Shirley, my ex-coworker; Alex, fellow JET; my sister; myself...the 4 with our different agendas. And it wasn't even planned! It evolved from a sudden offer which involves me bunking with Shirley at her hotel... to meeting Alex while he's there for his regular visit...... to having my sister come with me, as it was her plan to go to Taiwan at exactly the same period. We didn't even get to know each other's plans till yesterday.

Well, the more the merrier!

Monday, August 21, 2006

Making takoyaki in the heat!

My second natsu matsuri (summer festival)... Last year, it was very nearby as I attended the one in my town. But this year, I crossed the border to the city next to me, Hasuda, where my tutor lives. :p Though, both times I didn't get to wear a yukata. It's ok since I'll be able to wear it to a Yukata boat cruise at Tokyo bay next week!!

Nakamura-sensei was volunteering at the (椿山夏祭り)Tsubakiyama summer festival with her group of friends. They had a takoyaki stall (6 for 100 yen) and have been volunteering every year for perhaps 20 over years. She invited me to go, which I did in the evening when it wasn't that hot (but still very hot!!). And I had a really fun time because I wasn't just looking around, but helping to make takoyaki too! I had never made any before and always thought that it looks hard to make them nice & round. But it was actually quite simple. So for about three hours (while taking a break here and then), I stood in the heat grilling takoyaki that made the heat even more unbearable and drinking beer. I don't usually drink beer, but I had about 11/2 (or less) cans because it was just so hot and the beer felt refreshing. And I met a really cute little girl, Miku-chan, the grandaughter of one of the volunteers. She is so tiny and cute in her pink yukata!!

This summer seems to be going pretty fast, as I have quite a few things going on. It's kinda good though because it's better than having nothing to do. Though I hate summer for causing spots to appear on my face!!!

Sunday, August 13, 2006

Caught in a storm

The sky thundered yesterday afternoon and my tutor asked me to quickly head back home. I looked at the grey sky and got a little worried as I didn't have my raincoat. Although I wanted to hurry home, I needed to drop by the supermarket for some groceries. By the time I was done there, I could feel a little raindrops when I was riding. The little drops got bigger & bigger until the storm poured straight onto me. I panicked because it was still a distance from home and I had my yukata (simpler version of a kimono the Japanese wear in summer) in a paper bag (brought it to Nakamura sensei's place to learn how to wear but think I've already forgotten!). I quickly swerved to hide under the shelter of a grocery store. I was lucky because there aren't many shelters on my way home. I was a little soaked and looked dismally at the heavy rain. I stood there for quite some time as the thunder crashed a few times. The store owners were very kind and invited me to go into the store to wait out the storm, perhaps thinking that I might be scared of thunder.

It was a first experience, being caught in a storm. Somehow I felt as if I was in a movie because it would never happen to me back home.

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Status as a sempai

I walked down memory lane today...to my first day in Japan as a JET. Except that it was raining today while it was blazing hot last year when I arrived at Saitama. I went to fetch the 2 new AETs at Urawa (capital of Saitama) with my supervisor in the morning. It was a long day for me too as I had to stay with them the whole day. At the Health & Welfare centre at Urawa, I peeked curiously at the new JETs (Group B) of Saitama. They were half the size of ours last year. It was a weird feeling to be sitting at the other side with all the supervisors. I could still remember vividly how I felt at the "JETs' side" on my first day here. It was all so overwhelming, new & very hot.

But today, I'm a sempai (senior) to my 2 new colleagues from England & America. I wish Janet or just someone else is here to help too. They have so many questions to ask me, which is natural of course. Hopefully I would do ok for a sempai. Though I really wish there isn't such a big change. If only I could have come back to what was here before. But that's life....always full of new challenges.

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

Friends back home

I realised that I don't have any pictures of my friends back home. This was taken on our last night together. It's so much easier to be able to meet friends that are back home because you know you can also go back to where you come from. It's different with friends you meet overseas.

Monday, August 07, 2006

Coming back...

Who would have thought that I would be dreading to come back to Japan after a year? I left Singapore today with such mixed emotions. I know I didn't want to stay for good (although I miss my family & friends) and yet I was dreading to come back. The cold,hard fact that my good friend is no longer here really hit me when I reached home after two long train rides from Narita airport.

I have never felt that sad for a long time. This new contract year is going to be very different, I think. Though I hope it won't be as bad as I imagine it to be.

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

What's going to happen?

Many things are stirring in the air. Come August, life may become very different in many aspects. It's scary (although I'm saying it more as a matter of fact but can't find the word for it) how people entering and leaving your life could alter everything you have now.

I signed on for a second year expecting little changes and to feel more stabilized and familiarized to things that were new to me. Things that I don't like now might not change. But I know that some things will be different soon. Big or slight...I don't know. It's now a situation of wait & see.

Thursday, July 13, 2006

In the Straits Times

July 13, 2006
UPFRONT
Japan gets a taste of S'pore's English

KAZO (JAPAN) - THE first time Singaporean Tan Eng Seng, 28, stepped into a Japanese school, he received curious looks and questions.

'The students said to me, 'You look like us, why do you speak English?'' he recalled.

He is among 23 Singaporeans teaching English to Japanese students aged 13 to 18 in schools throughout Japan.

They are here under the Japan Exchange and Teaching (JET) programme, initiated in 1987 to bring foreign English teachers into Japanese classrooms.

The programme began with native speakers from countries like the United States and Britain, but since 2000, teachers from Singapore, Thailand, the Philippines and other countries where English is not a native tongue have been included as Assistant Language Teachers.

Applicants have to be university graduates under 35 years old, take a written English test at the Japanese embassy and are interviewed by a four-member panel which includes one native speaker. They do not need to be trained teachers.

There are now some 6,000 such teachers in Japan, from countries as diverse as Jamaica, Slovenia and Malaysia, though most are still from the US, Britain and Canada.

While enhancing English language education is the goal, the JET programme does not specify what level of competence it hopes Japanese students will achieve upon leaving school.

Rather, it has the broader objective of promoting mutual understanding between Japanese and other nationals at the local level to enhance internationalisation in Japan.

Also, because there are not enough Japanese teachers who can speak and teach English well enough, the foreigners plug that gap in the classroom.

Students get to listen to English spoken well, never mind if the accent is Singaporean or Thai.

The foreign teachers from countries like Singapore, where English is not the native language, are described here as speakers of 'World English'.

'It is good for the students to know all kinds of English,' said Mr Tan's colleague Mrs Takako Toma, who co-teaches 13-year-olds with him at Nishi Junior High School in Kazo city, two hours from Tokyo by train.

Most of the assistant language teachers teach alongside a Japanese colleague, and their role is mainly to vocalise the English words in textbooks or to act out English skits for the class.

What motivates many to apply for the job is a keen interest in Japan.

Singaporean Cynthia Su Xichun, 25, for example, majored in Japanese at the University of Melbourne. She also has a certificate in teaching English as a second language.

She arrived last August and feels she can do more in the classroom.

'Because of the limited role I play, it is hard for the students to get to know my personality and style of teaching. It also restricts me from getting to know the students better,' said Miss Su, who teaches at Shiraoka, a town in Saitama prefecture, not far from Kazo.

Mr Tan graduated from the National University of Singapore with a Japanese studies degree and worked as an English tutor before coming to Japan two years ago. His students at home included Koreans and Japanese.

He considers himself lucky to have Japanese colleagues who see him as almost equal partners in the classroom.

Mr Takahiro Kitashima, who teaches classes of 14- and 15-year-olds with Mr Tan, said: 'Eng Seng is just like a Japanese teacher. He knows the students well and tells us if he spots a student who is having problems.'

His students also get to learn about Singapore. Once, he played them a song by Singaporean singer-songwriter Tanya Chua.

'She's my friend,' he told the students, as they gamely sang along even though they did not understand all the words.

For the assistant teachers, being in Japan provides a chance to absorb the local culture by living among ordinary Japanese.

'I get to meet young students, their parents, and even their grandparents. It enables me to study Japanese society up close,' said Mr Tan.

For Miss Su, who is keen to work as a translator one day, being able to immerse herself in the Japanese language was a dream.

She has decided to stay one more year.

Keen to ensure that the foreign teachers take home pleasant memories, Japan ensures that they are well looked after in their postings across the country.

Most of the Singaporeans are based in towns well away from metropolitan areas, and two are working on sparsely-populated islands several hours south of Tokyo by ship.

The foreign assistant teachers receive about 300,000 yen (S$4,168) a month and housing is subsidised. Lunch, if they are not fussy, is often taken care of in school.

Mr Tan usually joins his colleagues in the common room for lunch. It may be stewed sardines - not one of his favourite dishes - served to teachers and students alike.

Mirroring the ritual that takes place throughout the school at lunch time, a senior teacher signals the start of the meal by saying, 'Itadakimasu' (I will receive). At the end, he says, 'Gochisosama deshita' (Thank you for a wonderful meal).

Outside school, life for the foreign teachers is often another adventure.

Adjusting to small-town life can be a challenge for Singaporeans used to city living.

Mr Tan's tiny 430 sq ft apartment overlooks rice fields. Peace and quiet descend soon after 8pm each day. Kazo city has nearly 70,000 people, a bowling alley and the ubiquitous pachinko pinball machine parlours, but no cinema.

So entertainment means taking the train to Tokyo's Shinjuku district on the weekend to catch a movie and perhaps have a fix of Singaporean or spicy South-east Asian food.

Mr Tan, who teaches at three schools, has also discovered that in a small town, there is no escaping running into his students.

'Even in the public library, I cannot read an article without having to say hello to a steady stream of children,' he says.

Now working out his third and final year, he treasures the experience.

'When I was having lunch with my students the other day, they started talking to me in English without my prompting, asking me how was my lunch and whether it was delicious. That sort of thing really motivates me to teach them more,' he said.

And it has been a long while since anyone expressed surprise that he speaks English.

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Farewell party for the AETs

The BOE held a farewell party for Janet, Peter & Ricky who will be leaving soon. Most people from the BOE attended this party at the Japanese restaurant in Shin-shiraoka.

I didn't particularly enjoy myself because my stomach was hurting and I was so tired. I've been feeling very tired the whole month! I wonder if it's the weather and it's very tough teaching at the school because there aren't any fans in the classrooms at all! The humidity is so bad, which makes the air in the classroom very still. Sometimes I feel like fainting in there. :(

The men drank a lot, including Ricky and Peter. But the 2 of them didn't appear drunk to me and behaved pretty normally. But my supervisor sitting beside me was acting weirdly..hah! He's in the picture too. I'd never seen him talk so much and most of it was incomprehensible. He kept saying that we are his pride, that we are the best AETs he had ever been in charge of! He had lots of funny actions that night too. Sigh...I don't know why most Japanese men act totally out of character when they're drunk.

Ahh..it'll probably be my turn to be saying goodbye next year as I'm not planning to stay on JET for a 3rd year. I'm so not looking forward to the farewell party because it's so fake and full of obligatory customs. We hardly talk to the people at the BOE and we don't know anything about each other. But for that few hours, we have to pretend that we'll miss each other. :(

Sunday, July 09, 2006

Curse of the cold

I seriously think someone has put a curse on me for coming to Japan. I've been plagued with countless colds since I came!! :( In autumn, when I caught colds, they would say it's the sudden change from hot to cold weather. When my colds became worse in winter, they would say that influenza/colds are very common in winter. In spring, they would say that the pollen in the air does something to you. Now that it's summer and I still catch colds, people tell me that it's easy to catch a cold in summer!! What?? Ahhhh.....doesn't it mean the whole year then?!

Saturday, July 01, 2006

I'm more beautiful than a maiko! :p

I had many conversation tests with the 1,2 and 3 nensei these 2/3 weeks. Conducting them really tires one out! I remember how nervous I would be when I had my Japanese conversation tests in uni so I know how my students feel. In order to put them at ease, I tried to smile more to relax them, but it also made me extremely exhausted!

The 3 nensei had one minute to introduce their topic about Japan. And I would ask them questions in between to make it conversation like. Most of the topics were the same....Kyoto & sushi!! I got really tired of listening and having to ask questions about them. But there were a few interesting ones. My favourite was a topic on maiko. A maiko is an apprentice geisha. The boy, Yajima-kun, said he likes maiko because they're beautiful. But he thinks his English teacher is more beautiful. So I asked who's his English teacher (even though I already know. It's for the conversation test!!). He replied, "Cassie (the English name that the JTE uses for herself) & Cynthia". I asked him who does he think is more beautiful. He looked me in the eyes and said, "Cynthia" without a moment of hesitation. Haha....what a clever boy! He probably knew that it would earn him more marks. He was quite on the mark because he did get a high score from me! Although, it was because I thought he was good, not because I was flattered by his answer...heh!

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

The BIG 25!

I'm officially in my mid-twenties!! I turned 25 yesterday and though I was whining to people about feeling old, I actually couldn't help feeling excited about it. I hadn't been excited about my birthday since turning 21. 22,23,24 didn't sound very significant. Maybe 25 is a round figure. Maybe 25 makes me sound or look more mature. haha.

I had a nice girls' night out to celebrate. The place we were supposed to go was a surprise planned by Janet. It was a surprise all right...I still don't know where the Italian restaurant that we were supposed to go is! We couldn't find the place following the directions Janet & Jeanny's (Janet's friend who's also Canadian) friend gave. So I had to go to a Japanese restaurant and even the police box (it's not exactly a station) to ask for directions. It was hard because we don't even know the name! But the policemen were very friendly. They gave me a map, telephone number and even called up the only Italian restaurant they know to check. Unfortunately, it is closed on Mondays. Janet & Jeanny think that the reason they were so helpful is because they have the hots for me...haha! They became even friendlier when they heard me speaking English to the girls. We must have made their boring day more exciting because one policeman started to talk about his travels to Singapore & Canada. hehe.

Well, we did end up in a nice little Italian restaurant after all due to luck. So after walking round for ages and burning some calories before eating, we finally settled down for my birthday dinner & wish! Yay...Happy Birthday to myself! I really hope my birthday wish will come true because it's so important to me.

Saturday, June 24, 2006

Never miss the last train!

I was still in Tokyo after 11 p.m with my friends. We had a very late dinner at Shimokitazawa. By the time I reached Omiya, my last train was gone!!! This meant that I either had to wander on the streets till the wee hours or take a cab. Of course I had to take the cab. If only I had known earlier that I had missed my train (stupid system error that didn't allow me to check my train schedule the whole night on my mobile!!), I could have stayed over at Michael's place in Urawa. But I didn't have my glasses and I have to throw away my daily contact lens, which means I would be half blind coming home in the morning!! So whatever it is, I'm stuck with taking the cab. The cab fare totaled up to 5,700 yen...which almost gave me a heart attack. I was wincing when I peeped at the meter! That is almost S$70! And Omiya is just a 15 min train ride away. The train ticket from Omiya only costs 230 yen. Waahhh (wailing!!)!! I swear I'm never going to miss my last train in Japan again!

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

The new pledge

God, sometimes I wish I can kill Alex! He is so IRRITATING! He always has to bring up my nationality in our arguments. And he even came up with this hell of a stupid pledge below! Although I couldn't help laughing when I was reading it.....

Ra ra ra
We, the people of Singapore
Together march towards communism
Our noble aspiration
To make Singapore a controlled state
Let us all fight free speech
In a new spirit
Together we proclaim
Onward Singapore
Onward Singapore

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Farewell dinners

It was time to say farewell to my family. It feels just a little weird to come back to an empty and quiet apartment, which is also a lot cleaner! But I'll get used to it quickly because I do like my space. Hope my family won't interpret it as me not liking to be with them! It was good to to have spent 3 weeks with them and I must say thank you to my mum who cooked all the time while she was here! I didn't say it to her because I'm too Chinese in that sense!

My sister went out with me and my friends for the last time on Sunday night. It's amazing how she can click with them so fast (even the last time when she met Michael and Yuliang in Dec). But then, that's my sis - social animal. I'm the total opposite of her. Michael couldn't make it for the dinner but he made the effort to come meet us after his GRE test. Hah...my sister should feel honoured!

It was back to the ramen place again yesterday, as my parents wanted to have it before they leave. Don't think they can find such good ramen after they go back!

Saturday, June 17, 2006

Running away from shoes



Yuki's little brother, Kaito, is so cute. Yuki is the boy who's always calling me "Baba" (rude term for aunty) and I call him "Baba-kun" in return. Kaito (3 years old) used to give me an unfriendly look whenever I wave or say hi to him. But he's friendlier now although I think he has his moods sometimes. Haha...the kids all have their moods because they'll ignore me when they are unhappy. Nanami, the elder sister of Yuki and Kaito, asked if I like Tsubasa a lot because I was trying to catch hold of him to talk. When Kaito heard me say yes, he asked "Jya, Kaito wa?" (How about me?). I said, "Kaito mo dai suki dayo!" (I like you very much too!). He gave an embarrassed, little grin with a "Ke!" that was so cute!

Anyway, I had to quickly escape home when Yuki and Tsubasa thought it was very fun to take off one of their dirty shoes and kept throwing at and attacking me while shouting, "Foot buster!!!". Kids are cute but they can also be very violent too!

Thursday, June 15, 2006

First year anniversary

It's been a year (++) since I've started blogging! The only other time I'd kept a writing journal when I was in my early teens, though I can't remember how long I continued with it. I had 2 journals and they were not as interesting. They were mostly filled with stuff on my stupid crushes and my first "love" (which on hindsight was just puppy love). Once, my ex-boyfriend who came to Singapore for a visit happened to find my journals kept in a box with a lot of other stuff from my secondary school days. He insisted on reading them and I thought why not since it was such a long time ago and they contained nothing about him. But he couldn't help laughing while he was reading that I got so fed up and banned him from ever touching them again! I hadn't touched them for a long time until his "discovery" so I read them too when he was out of sight. And it was really embarrassing to read about what I was thinking when I was younger! It showed how much I'd changed since then.

Anyway, I've digressed. Why did I start to blog? It all started when I took the temporary teaching job at the Japanese Primary School. I just had so many stories to share about the kids. I was always talking about them to my family and friends, which I guessed must have bored them! My sister was already blogging at that time and with a little help from her, I started to write about the kids. At least my blog can't complain that I keep talking about them. :p

And I kept on writing after coming here because I want to record every detail and experience of my life here. I regretted not keeping a journal when I was in Melbourne. Because it's not recorded, it somehow feels not as real as it should be. I like that I can upload my pictures too because photos are also representative of a memory. It also saves me the obligation and trouble of sending mass emails to family and friends about how and what I'm doing here. If they're interested enough to know, they can always read my blog. Though, there are also things that I can't write in here because they're not meant to be shared with everyone. That is one thing I hate about blogging.

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

My early birthday present!

My friends from Singapore sent me a present when I was away in Hokkaido the past few days. It's a little early but it's always better early than late. Hah...I was very surprised and happy when I tore open the wrapping to find a book "PS, I love You" by Cecelia Ahern! I read her 2nd book "Where Rainbows End" in winter and quite enjoyed it. Isn't it lucky that my friends bought me her 1st book instead?! I was actually interested to get her 3rd novel after reading the extract.

Thank you so much for the lovely surprise present! Haha...yeah, hopefully I will find the "Prince Charming" (as suggested by "Ah Lian") or more correctly soul mate (more in tune with the book) that you wish I will find! Guess they're afraid that nobody would want me as I grow older because they're always asking, "So, have you found anyone in Japan?"! :p

Thursday, June 08, 2006

First time to Odaiba





My sister is only a tourist, but she has been to Odaiba, a famous dating spot in Tokyo many times. I even had to depend on her to bring all of us there on Sunday as I had never been there! Odaiba has a Statue of Liberty, Little Hongkong and also Venus Fort (shopping areas with a theme). So it seems as if we have travelled to 3 different countries in a day. We went for quite a shopping spree as I was looking for summer clothes and when my sister is around, there is always shopping! I don't understand why she's such a shopping queen. When my friends (who don't really like to dress up) comment on how I like to shop, I always say, "You haven't met my sister!". I'm pretty normal compared to her!